Zen New Old Year!


I was sent this great New Year’s poem from the Kwan Um Weekly Zen email list. It’s so incredible, I thought I would share it here for the start to a great new old year!

Let’s see what we make 2025 into!

From Zen Master Seung Sahn 1980 New Year


Every year, every year, 
New year, new year.
Every year, every year,
Old year, old year.
 
Old year gone.... New year.
New year gone... Old year.
 
Who made that?
You? I? We? They?
No, no, no!
Then God? Buddha? Time? Space?
No, no, no!
Then the sun? The moon?, The earth? The stars?
No, no, no!
Then the mountain? The river? The tree? The flower?
No, no, no!
Then the elephant? The dog? The cat? The mouse?
No, no, no!
Then, "Three pounds of flax?"
"Dry shit on a stick?"
"Katz?"
"Mu?"
No, no, no!
 
Then what?

The snow sparkles in the dawn.

In the morning 1972 plus 8. 


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End of the Travel Day

The biscotti cookies on Delta used to be the obvious choice on these flights, but now there is a new champion. Whatever these things are, they are my new favorite.

I think I disgusted everyone i was in line with by chugging a beer and eating a disintegrating sub sandwich while boarding. No, it was not a chicken finger sub - add another thing to the regrets list. 

Had a couple of thoughtful conversations on this trip. First, what is regret and what’s the function of regret? To say you have no regrets in life is to perhaps be expressing regret in a novel way. Regrets shouldn’t drive you forward, they shouldn’t really guide you unless they are educational moments where you learned a choice was a poor one. But even then, how do you determine a poor choice? The context then or now? It was a pretty good chat. 

Secondly, what does success mean? How would you know you were successful? There are financial benchmarks, obviously, but sometimes these leave us feeling cold. What about personal ones? That has the problem of being so individualized you dissolve any communicative potential of the term. Are successful people pointing themselves out? Or is that a sign of failure? Who gets to determine if someone has been successful? This is another great question I’m thinking about here as I return home. 

Along with the cookies I suggest a pairing of Woodford Reserve. They gave me a double this time. Cheers to you and happy new year! We plan to listen to music, watch the ball drop on TV and make some cocktails. 

Thoughts Aloft

Here I am on the flight - a quick selfie!!

Thinking about many things after my very quick trip to central Florida.

First, I think that there really is something to the connection between how you treat individuals and your political outlook. People who have a very committed political position feel justified in dismissing preferences or desires of others if they don’t correspond to the truth that they “know.” This might be prevalent diachronically, but I think this is a common practice that increases the more certain people are of their political position. 

Uncertainty is a fantastic political position as it keeps you open to change. You don’t have to do the high-energy face saving, or spinning a narrative about being wrong (but still being right) and you don’t have to do the backflips in defending your position until the very end. You can always lean into change, steer into it and really come out with a more informed or if not that, a more reasoned position, which is better for democracy anyway.

I’m hoping I can get a free drink on this flight too - coming down here they didn’t charge me. We’ll see if I can replicate it.

There doesn’t seem to be any reason why the FAA bans mobile phone use on commercial flights  I was wondering about this as it’s such a small deal these days to power off phones on the flight. Maybe they are slowly moving away from the policy? 

I think three to four days is the best length for a trip visiting people. I used to think it was much longer or you had to have at least a week to accomplish anything, but as I get older I think differently about it.

Flying back to a very warm New York, taking the train back home from Kennedy so I’m sure I’ll post a bit more. Had little time to really have a sit down and a type with little kids about - I don’t know how you people with kids write anything let alone good things. You are a lot better at concentrating than I am. 




Second Doctor Regeneration

I was shown this amazing reconstructed video of the Second Doctor’s regeneration this morning. Just an incredible scene. This never was shot at the time, it’s all newly created. I love these! This one is so well done using bits of audio from the surviving clips of the second doctor’s last episode. 

A lot of the elements are from the show but many of the visuals are modern. 

Caves of Qud

Rarely does a video game come along that resets my entire thinking about video games and their possibilities. 

The first such game was on an Apple II in my neighbor's garage. There was a starship building and combat game where you could control every aspect of your ship's design. Playing this with my neighbor one afternoon introduced me to the concept of a Phyrric victory. I had boarded his ships that were going so fast I couldn't turn them or slow them down enough to avoid them colliding with local planets or my own ships. This has stayed with me from when I was a young teen. Still don't know the name of this game or what it would even be called.

In high school, I was introduced to the game Starflight, a masterpiece of gaming that I still play occasionally. This game was so "open world" that the contemporary definition wouldn't fit it. You can land on any planet, drive around, look at alien life, collect it, sell it, kill it, go mining, etc. You can staff your ship with your own custom crew and train them, you can do research, you can study alien languages, you can engage in space piracy and combat or be a diplomat - it's really totally your call. I loved playing this game, it was, in my imagination and in my play, akin to what I currently visually experience in No Man's Sky. Starflight did not have anything other than rudimentary graphics, but the experience of play - the real drama of it - happened in my imagination as I talked about it with my friend who introduced me to the game. Starflight 2 came out soon after and it was even better. Not graphically, but narratively. 

Caves of Qud is a successor to this kind of gaming, where in my imagination I have a more graphically-intense narrative and scene than what's happening on the screen. Totally adjacent to all this gameplay was my obsession with Dungeons & Dragons, still got it but don't play at all anymore these days, where everything valuable about the game was in the vibrancy that was both an ingredient and the creation of the stories the game produced. We were producing the narrative, with a few random bits of chance thrown in with dice rolls. This is what Caves is like. 

In the clip above I'm doing great, walking through a canyon with my horse companion feeling pretty confident I can take anything on. Once I enter the canyon to the north, two flying snake creatures instantly immolate me, and before I can really think about my next move (which should have been to douse myself in water that I was carrying) I decided to retreat. The amount of time it took to walk away meant I burned to death. 

Every game in Caves, at least the way it is meant to play, is as a one-shot. The world, your character, everything goes away at the end of the run. The world, the ruins and the various historical twists and turns of the religion and politics of the world will change significantly in the next run. 

My current interest is in the randomly generated books in the world. I like collecting them and bringing them to the librarian in the desert. It's a bit of a harsh run with a lot of dangers, but what isn't? In my mind I'm thinking about the narratives I've read about the early Buddhist scholars carrying the books of their faith through the Khyber pass to Tibet. An analogue that no video game should be making anyone think about, really. 

These experiences are making me re-think the concept of "immersion" in gaming and what it might mean. As a concept it's pretty thin, ironically, the way it's used today. I think there are some interesting things going on here in my experience that might make for a decent essay. Immersive games have always been around, but they have nothing to do with graphical fidelity. It all has to do with the rhetorical concept of invention. But I don't want to spoil the essay here. I'm just waiting for an update to a game to download and it's taking forever. Another advantage of the graphical place-holder game over the very well designed visual fondant of today's games. 

Holiday Coffee Mugs

I was looking for my shot measuring cup last night and found my two holiday coffee mugs instead!

I can’t believe this is the first morning this holiday I am using them! Typically I break them out after thanksgiving and use them for a month and a half. Time to catch up! 


Traditional End of the Year Playlist

Here's 2024's list of best new classical music recordings. I make this compilation looking at NPR, Grammophone, the Guardian, and some other places that have a list of the best recordings that came out that year. 

Not my judgement but I do think that these sources really know what they are talking about. Never a bad one in the list. I just look at what they wrote and I go find it on Spotify. 

Here's the Spotify link!